Time Flies....

So, recently I've been thinking about how quickly time goes by. People always say to "take advantage of this time in your life because it'll be gone before you know it." Well, I'm starting to realize that those are very true words of wisdom. I am halfway done with college already and it still feels like I'm in high school sometimes. College is one of those things you look up to all of your teen years. Should I go to college? Which college should I go to? What should I major in? How am I going to live on my own, without my parents? All of these questions run through your mind, and it feels like it's never going to come, and then you look now and realize that you've already been in college for 2 years and that you'll be done and out of college in just 2 MORE years. And if that time comes as fast as the past 2 years have gone, you're basically already done with college! Wow. Right now in my life, I can't wait to get married and be a mom. And then that time will come and go and I won't be able to wait for my kids to go off to college so that my husband and I can be alone again and just grow old together and then be grandparents. It all seems so far off, but right now, thinking back to elementary school, it feels like it was 5 years ago. So if that's the case, where I will be in five more years? I'll be a 40 year old mom with 4 kids and wrinkles forming all over my face. It all just blows my mind. I tend to be very impatient about the future, but I need to realize that it will all come in time and probably too fast, and then everything that I looked forward to will be in the past and I won't even notice it was there because I was too busy focusing on the future.

20 Years Later...

Well... since I'm in the last few hours of being a teenager, I guess I'll share some of my last 19 year old thoughts. The past year has been one of smiles and frowns, laughs and tears, excitement and disappointment, and love and hate. It's been a struggle and an experience in trying to find out who I am and who I'm supposed to be. It's crazy to think that I've been on this earth for 20 years now and I still don't know who I am sometimes. This past year has made me realize that I REALLY still have a lot to learn about love, happiness, kindness, patience and life in general. I think sometimes we don't realize how much there really is to learn and experience in this life until we are caught in a situation where we need knowledge we don't have. We may not be able to learn and experience everything in this world but we need to learn all that we CAN. There are certain lessons that everyone needs to learn and other lessons that are more important for certain people. In my opinion, everyone needs to learn how to love. Truly, sincerely love. Whether it is love for a person or an object or a sport or a profession, you have to love something and have a passion for something. Without love, what is there to be excited about?

Next, I think everyone needs to learn how to have true happiness. Even if some people never achieve it, they at least need to learn HOW it's achieved. Happiness comes from loving the people and things around you. It comes from being grateful for what you have, not constantly wanting more. No one can have everything and YOU have a whole lot more than a lot of people in this world. Happiness comes from recognizing the blessings God has given you and acting upon them in the way he intended you to.

The last important thing I think everyone needs to learn, and one that I have a lot of work to do on, is patience. Patience for other people, patience for yourself, patience for the future, patience for better things to come, patience for love, patience for LIFE. In order to get through this life, it takes a lot of patience, and I've learned that without it, life really is going to be harder. Keep your goals in mind, keep your head up and keep moving forward, but live in the present. If you're always living in the future, you'll never have a past. And one day you'll look back and not know where your life went.

So, I guess I'm just saying that what I've learned in my 20 years is that life is hard and there are plenty of lessons to learn, but have fun along the way and don't get caught up in anything. Yes, you need priorities, but they need to be kept in perspective. After all, no one makes it out of here alive.

Pity Parties and Expecting the Unexpected

It has been a REALLY long time... so I thought it was about time I say something. How about a nice little LiFe UpDaTe :) So, spring semester started about 2 1/2 weeks ago and it feels like it's been AT LEAST a month. Time is going slow. Yuck. Butttttt.... things aren't bad, so it's ok. Anyways, I'm expecting something amazing to happen this semester, which means it's not going to happen. Eventually I'll learn that the good stuff happens when you're least expecting it. So I guess I'm expecting the unexpected? Or I'm unexpecting the expected?...I heard recently that expecting the unexpected makes the unexpected the expected? So really...... I don't know. None of it makes sense to me. Bottom line, I just want something exciting to happen. In any case, life is pretty good these days. On a scale of 1-10... It's about a 7 I guess. I've been working on keeping a positive attitude and not making a fuss about little, insignificant things. It's um... going. I still have work to do :) But, I'm staying busy and keeping my mind occupied with school, school and more school. I'm also dancing a little this semester! I made it into the collegiate dance company and I have rehearsal about 3-4 hours a week. It's so great to not be dance-deprived. So, in addition to schoolwork and tests and interior design projects coming out of my ears, I am dancing!! Which makes a grand total of 18 credits I am taking. Sheesh. And then yesterday, I went to an opening social/interview thing for becoming an I-team leader for fall semester, which should be super fun... I'm hoping :) Something to get next semester started out well! Let's see, anything else I can add to my easy, breezy schedule, Oh ya, I'm also going to try to continue to donate plasma this semester, if I can find the time! But $50 a week can always help a poor little college student. So, with all that said, I'm also going to TRY to have somewhat of a social life. I'm turning 20 years old (that's 1/5 of a century :)) next month and the last thing I want to do is spend my last few weeks as a teenager doing NOTHING but busy stuff! Sooo, maybe I will actually make some new friends and maybe just maybe meet some boys for a change. Preferably boys who actually take a second look at me hahaha. Miracles do happen. Sometimes. :) Anyways, enough of the pity party because that's something else I'm trying to work on and because I hate other people's pity parties so what would make me think that other people enjoy my pity parties? I'm pretty sure no one enjoys other people's pity parties. Phew. I'm out of breath and out of energy. It's about time for me to hit the hay. Happy Cinco De Mayo!! :) Goodnight!